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Monday, January 16, 2006
9:49 AM

Today is the first day i become 20 years old.. Yep, so twenty years had passed.. Erm, life's has been pretty good for the past years.. i suddenly remembered what happened in the past.. all the funny things.. I remember in when i was 14 i was in secondary 1, class 1d in Bukit Merah Sec. We are the most noisest class in the school, eventhoug our class was situated right behind the main block, but according to our teachers, they said our noises projected even into the stuff office, good one there! haha..

So we changed when i was 15. We bacame the most quiet class in the school. And i remembered Mrs Eng shouted at us because we don't answer any questions, same as other teachers. But we'd changed. So why? haha.. Funny school.. So that was a time when i knew guys like Guru, Fahmi, Cedrick.. we got all hell of fun.. We almost created all sorts of problems in the class, at the back corber of the seat.. haha.. I remembered that Mrs Oh pulled my ear and twisted it because the whole class did not do well on one question, but why she walked to me?? haha.. funny teachers.. So i become the one who suffered and whole class laughed, but quietly haha..

When i was 16, secondary 3, I remembered during a biology lesson where Mrs Lim asked thw whole what's the vein that trasnport blood from the lung to the heart i think? and i answered the correct answer,not quite sure what i'd answered but yeah, she said, hey class, don't think Pang How is playful ya, see, he knew his work.. Haha, but i peeped the book before i answered, of cuz i knew! haha hehe.. Than there's floorball.. We made it the most popular sports in the school. Basketball is without a coach because the school can't afford to pay, soccer coach as well, all gone because they did not get the pay.. But wait a minute, the school was afford to pay for flowers.. expensive flowers.. and new tables and chairs for the teachers.. Phew, they were still new but the school.. dunno what to say.

Oh yeah, i forgot that i'd got a very 'wonderful' Pricipal who always says, u must learn how to give chances, and be responsible.. in a very squeky sound, we just couldn't stand it.. ANd when there's assembly.. Our class would went.. WAHLAU, we hate Monday! hehe..

Sec 4, O level, teachers told us, "People, this is the most important exam in ur life", and yes, that was the most important one because i had heard it lots of times before i had my UPSR.. so yeah.. Important here and there.. so yeah, i didn't care and just studied normally. Our class best achievment in that year was we made Mr KoK cried! haha.. I wasn't there but oooooooo, i think i will be laughing on the spot if i saw him crying haha.. Well, we had some good teachers in that year, almost all the HOD's taught us..well, From Miss Prema's favourate quote, "I slap u ah" to Mr Goh's "U all understand or not", well, we were having fun! haha.. But of cuz, there were sad moments when we were about to leave the school..

Ngee Ann Poly was my next stop.. Erm.. I got meet people around.. And finally, i got away with Uniforms! hehe.. Mechanical Enginnering was fun as in, the class.. All guy class when tutorial. And we alwasy had that after break. And sometimes we played soccer, sometimes we played other stuff.. then after, we all took off our shirts and hung behind the class haha i can tell the Etech teacher was always fuming haha.. What's more! We played block cathcing eh.. From 1st floor we ran until thr 6th floor, ran across every floor, down up.. down up.. Good excercise aye.. That's why they say poly life is so fun! haha.. Great class i mean, we could all stuck into a lift and block the entrance for others to come in.. haha..

I didnt spent much time in poly, i went to melbourne. Trinity college.. People say i'm the yellow book, and by now, i'm 19! hmmm.. I met the love of my life, i met one group of super super funny friends.. Many group in fact.. Almost all the fun thing during lesson happened during Drama lesson.. I got Rachel, hoo, can say the most cutr and slowest sister i'd got, haha, she is so slow.. SLOW.. but erm, she's very clever.. And i got Gan in there as well, They call him Gay, haha.. that's very funny.. ERM, yeah.. i think that's alot hehe..

Now i'm 20.. Hoping best to come! haha..

no words can express
my love for you

Thursday, January 12, 2006
2:26 AM

I woke up his morning at 8 oclock.. I went to learn driving at 9.. I'm so pissed off at my tutor because he kept putting his hand on my stering control. He always think i'm gonna crash something but i think i know what i'm doing.. I learn parking today, and i didnt do well, and he screamed at me. That's my first time, he didnt even show me how to do it, and he said i didnt treat that very seriously.. after that i dun feel like driving already. There's no motivation at all.. He just kep blabbing besides me and kept breaking for me, interrupt my stering.. anyway, i got a bad mood today since then.. I reached home and my dad when to estate. So i dont have my lunch and i ate a little bit biscuits and went to sleep. hmmm, didnt sleep last night until 5 plus.. So i went back to sleep at about 1 oclock.. after that i spend much of my time watching tv.. well yeah, just another boring day.. Got no one to talk to, just sleep and watch tv lar.. Erm, i watched this animal show on animal planet, they shown amazing animals like er, snakes lah, crocodile lah all this fantastic animal. And i saw this tiger baby, dunno what's that called but they are really cute hehe.. Thursday nothing special lah hee..

no words can express
my love for you

Wednesday, January 04, 2006
5:42 AM

10th Grade:-
As I sat there in English class,
I stared at the girl next to me.
She was my so called 'best friend'.
I stared at her long, silky hair,
and wished she was mine.
But she didn't notice me like that,
and I knew it.
After class,
she walked up to me and asked me for
the notes she had missed the day before.
I handed them to her.She said 'thanks'
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her, I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

11th grade:-
The phone rang. On the other end,
it was her. She was in tears,
mumbling on and on about how
her love had broke her heart.
She asked me to come over
because she didn't want to be alone, So I did.
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her
soft eyes, wishing she was mine.

After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie,
and three bags of chips,
she decided to go home.
She looked at me, said 'thanks'
and gave me a kiss
on the cheek..I want to tell her,
I want her to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.

Senior year:-
One fine day she walked to my locker.
"My date is sick" she said,
"hes not gonna go" well,
I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade,
we made a promise that
if neither of us had dates,
we would go together just as 'best friends'.
So we did.
That night, after everything was over,
I was standing at her front door step.
I stared at her as She smiled at me
and stared at me with her crystal eyes.
Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!"
and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
Graduation:-
A day passed, then a week, then a month.
Before I could blink, it was graduation day.
I watched as her perfect body
floated like an angel
up on stage to get her diploma.
I wanted her to be mine-but
she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
Before everyone went home,
she came to me in her smock and hat,
and cried as I hugged her.
Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
and said- 'you're my best friend,
thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
Marriage:-
Now I sit in the pews of the church.
That girl is getting married now.
and drive off to her new life,
married to another man.
I wanted her to be mine,
but she didn't see me like that,
and I knew it.
But before she drove away,
she came to me and said 'you came !'.
She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek.
I want to tell her,
I want her to know
that I don't want to be just friends,
I love her but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
Death:-
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin
of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'.
At the service, they read a diary entry
she had wrote in her high school years.
This is what it read:
'I stare at him wishing he was mine,
but he doesn't notice me like that,
and I know it.
I want to tell him,
I want him to know that
I don't want to be just friends,
I love him but I'm just too shy,
and I don't know why.
I wish he would tell me he loved me !
.........'I wish I did too...'

I thought to my self, and I cried.

no words can express
my love for you

Sunday, December 25, 2005
6:03 AM

Hi blog! hehe.. so long did not update this page, my dear is screaming at me wuahaha.. hehe.. anyway.. i'm back in Malaysia after a long and suffering few months of exam time in Australia, there u go, fullstop to trinity college, and hee har Melbourne Uni.. Merry Christmas! a very boring Christmas indeed, sleep very long ler.. hehe... But i think this year's christmas is far better than last year's cause i did a bit of shopping today hehe.. Better lah, not like last year, almoz rotted at home. Erm, erm, few month ago i was in Australia enjoying myself er, but the exam period was really a stupid one, and i received lousy results also lah haha, but IT'S ALL OVER my god! hehe.. Erm, there is nothing special here in Kota Kinabalu lar, i fall sick right after i reach Malaysia, coz erm, i think i'm used to the cold and dry weather there in Melbourne, so i cant sleep well lah, cant sit well lah.. hehe... Erm, part of it is because i wont be seeing my dearest piggy oink oink for like a month, omg, A MONTH! that's like, A MONTH? but nvm lah, very fast one lah hor hehe.. hehe.. I went to learn driving.. That course really is a boring one, more boring than chemistry, Eap, whatever, the BORIEST thing in my life.... I really miss my dear dear alot lah.. sobs sobs.. hehe... but yeah, very fast one lar.. hehe... ERm, WOAH, today i talk to her mumy on the phone, omg... u know, is like a mountain falling down.. like u know, electric shok like that, so scary hehe.. but erm, i too good lah, wuahahah.. erm, her mom's voice very friendly lar.. very nice lah hehe.. later she become nice than me to my dear dear than i power liao wuahahah... (PROUD) haha hehe.. dun angry lah dear dear hahahahha.. hehe.. i realy miss u alot!! hee.. Erm, talk abit about my dad's business lah, well, everything is doing well lah, but it's very torturing also cause the new factory needs another 3 years to build, so very cham lah, my dad have to wait again.. hehe.. but yeah nvm hehe.. Erm, Chinese new year is coming, but i will be 20! 20!! omg! i dun wan!!! but aiya, they say guy more good looking as they become older haha.. but nolah, i think i will be like that for the rest of my life, Number 1 in the world, hehe.. hehe..Whos is MIchael OWEN??
hehehehehehehehe..... erm.. woah, this msg is getting long ler hehe.. but nvm lah hehe.. hehe..

Dear dear i miss u so so so so so so so so much! hee... well, life without u here is like fish without water hahaha hehe.. but i survived it most of the time by sleeping lah, watching tv lah hehe.. but i miss hugging my dear dear! hee.. and i feel something must have gone wrong because there's no one nag me when i dun shave, when i dun bathe, when i dun do this and that... wuahahaahaha... u know is like when i look beside me, is AIR, no person there, feel so uneasy! haha hehe.. but this is for you, I LOVE YOU! U are always with me, coz i love to imagine u around me when u r not hee.. And when u r around, i will forget everything but just focus on you hee.. mushy ar? hehe..

well, i miss basketball alot also lah. I'm like a pig there sleeping, i used to jump around, but where to jump ler here? hehe.. hehe..
OKLAH, i think i'm long winded enuff lah hehe... Well, let me end with a song lyrics by Jacky Cheung, Perhaps Love? This movie is acted by him, this song is sang by him.

Everyone wants to find out,
Who's the one love of their lives?
More so melancholy..
.. especially around midnight
eyes closed with heart unsettled
because deep inside, you know that was love
if that was really love,
should have stayed before you turned away
even with pain, even with tears
even with countless lonely nights
Love.. Why is it always clearer looking back?
Even with pain, even with tears
The feelings remained after love was long gone.
If that was really love
If I'D understood it when it happened
Would my life be any different?
Especially around midnight, When i think about the future
Can i be at peace with the present
.. and ask myself what is love
If that was really love
Should have stayed before i turned away
even with pain, even with tears.
even with countless lonely nights
Love.. Why is it always clearer looking back?
Even with pain, even with tears,
The feeling remained after
love was long gone
Because such was love, because such is love..

Well, i think this song is for people who doesnt believe the exist of love, and to person who doesnt know how or where to find love.. but i can tell everyone that, i had already found love, and this love will remain with me for the whole life.. My dear, i'm gonna learn this song and sing it to you.. hehe..

no words can express
my love for you

Sunday, September 04, 2005
11:00 PM

no words can express
my love for you

Yep! that's my dear dear.. She's the one that i've beem talking and talking and talking about! hee.. yeah.. she's my world! hee.. anyway.. today is Sunday, hee.. Lethargic day.. Thos photos were taken on Friday.. hee.. so yeah.. hem.. let me recite my weekend.. Saturday morning i went for basketball, from about 8 30 till 12.. well, my dear dear was sick yesterday, i'm so worried about her.. and yeah, i really wish that she can get well right now hee... and i miss her! hee.. Dear dear get well soon! hee.. and erm, i always have stomach ache on saturday.. hee.. i had a lot of thing for dinner, chicken rice and fried rice... eat until so full.. hee..
erm, Today is Sunday.. hee.. nothing much.. next week is exam so yeah.. got to study lar.. hee.. mom quarrelled with elder brother yesterday.. and i felt so sad yesterfday night.. hee..
dear dear get well soon!! hee..

no words can express
my love for you

Friday, August 26, 2005
12:51 AM

haha.. dear dear this is for u..

When the night has fallen onto me,
i called out your name,
serching for an answer, that i never expect how it'll be,
reaching for a guidelines, but you were not there,
when morning comes, i searched for you..

I am lost and alone,
It's a hope that keeps me alive,
struggle to find my destination, you, had gave me hope,
the brightness and the shinning stars upon me,
brought tears to my eyes, where are you..

Days and night had passed by,
it's like a dream come true..
a dream that will never happen blossomed,
holding you by my side, its like a wonder in my life,
with you, flowers will never wilt and sun will always shines,
with you, hope will always be alive.

calling out your name, you approched me,
i will do whatever it takes to show you the love i have for you,
it's been a long while since the wait,
i tressure..
i had just started a journey,
a journey that is full of love and joy,
a journey that will never be lonely and dull,
just wanna tell you, how much i love you,
and i love you..

haha.. done hehe... hehe.. hope u like it ya dear! haha hee.. next time will be better ones haha hee..

no words can express
my love for you

Sunday, August 21, 2005
3:40 AM

20/8/2005-- Hmmm.. hehe.. today is saturday! hee.. anyway.. hmm.. today woke up at 8 40 am haha.. dear dear missed call me like 10 times? haha hehe.. hmmm.. then i went to basketball lar.. Morning is kinda cold, but after warmed up for a while, then it soon became hot.. hee.. anyway, only me, Jack, Gavin, Min, Cheryl went, then we play against other people, Joo came late haha.. He was asleep the whole day, dunno what was he playing as well haha hehe.. anyway, erm, after that we went to China Bar, i ate my favourite Seafood combination Hor Fun, then sat there and rest.. I fell down today.. Kinda sratched my hand on the hard surface haha.. erm, drank some water.. hee.. anyway, miss my dear dear..
Reached home at about 4, slept until about 8 30 pm, Mr Gan woke me up to do chem project, he came to my hse, then we decided on what to do for the project hee.. and yeah, we almoz finished it hee.. anyway.. talked some stuff, then yeah.. Did my laundry.. hehe.. gonna sleep now liao hehe.. its 3 38am! omg i am so gonna kill by my dear dear hahaha...

no words can express
my love for you